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Archive for October, 2005

Love Me Some Nickelback

Monday, October 17th, 2005

Just for the record, the latest Nickelback album, All the Right Reasons, motherfucking rocks.

(Thanks, Mom!)

That's all.

Don’t Feed Him After Midnight

Friday, October 14th, 2005

my pet!

Red-Headed Niece

Thursday, October 6th, 2005

Turn up your nose at red heads! What ignorance! I pity your lack of taste. Why, man, red is the natural color of beauty! What is there that is really beautiful or grand in Nature or Art, that is not tinted with this primordidal color?
- Mark Twain, "Oh, She Has Red Hair!", Hannibal Daily Journal, 5/13/1853

Tuesday night I dreamed about my niece.

In the dream she was about 5 years old, though I thought she'd just been born! I think is so I could see what she looked like. She had strawberry blonde hair, turning darker - what was someday going to be a beautiful red hair like her mother's. She had my brother's big, brown eyes and long, thick lashes. She was cute, smart, funny, loving. She ran up and gave me a big hug and kiss even though - in the dream - we hadn't met yet. I was told she'd been born in "April".

Originally, the docs had said the due date was March 30, but the 3-month doctor visit yesterday came back with an April 30 due date - so half of my dream was right on. As to the sex, we won't know, because the parents-to-be have decided they want it to be a suprise (much to our dismay!). But we all "feel" it's a girl - and, according to my dream, it is.

We know, if it is, the middle name will be "Grace", as it is a tradition in my brother's girlfriend's family that girls have that middle name; I think it's lovely. They're tossing around Ava (Ava Grace) as a first name, and I'd like to see her named after our great-grandmother, Melina. Isn't Melina Grace pretty? They're also thinking of Riley, but that doesn't go so well with Grace.

I'm still getting my mind around this "being an aunt" thing, but I think it'll be fun. My only hope is that I don't get too attached, only to lose her - my brother wants to move out of state someday, and his girlfriend talks about, someday, moving back to Idaho. But that's their choice, and what can you do? The smartest thing would be for them to stay right here, where our family will help them again and again (my parents are already letting them move back home, and are planning on buying them a trailer and sticking them on a lot behind our house - who wouldn't want such help?!)...but they're young, and don't realize yet the bonuses of staying in such a situation; I can only hope that someday they will.

My brother scoffs at the idea of being given a trailer - "I don't want that," he tells me, "that seems so permanent. I don't want to live the rest of my life in Louisiana." And I don't have the heart to tell him, he who is already so worried about becoming a parent, "It isn't about what you want anymore, little brother." He talks about moving to Seattle in four years. Seattle - when neither of them have a full-time job and there's a baby on the way. They have a lot to learn, eh? They'll learn it, but I'm the big sister and I worry - that's my job.

But, still, I'm excited about this baby - I can't help it. I can't wait to meet her (again) - she seems totally cool and absolutely awesome. I think I'll be more than proud to be her "Aunt Shanna".